After a roller coaster few years, my intuition to solve for sleep has helped. Let’s take a step back for a moment to see how I reached that conclusion.
For the last 18 years, off and on, I have struggled with feeling well. Depression and anxiety have impacted my life coupled with a series of diagnoses that just did not fit well. Luckily, I was open to both counseling and medication. I have tried more than my fair share of medicines with most causing insanely bad side effects. If a medicine says it will cause X, I will tend to get the side effects at 1000X.
My primary care recommended a Psychiatrist with a DO to address my challenges that were impacting my life. She again tried a series of medicines and it became the running joke to see how bad my side effects would be. Clearly, I have reservations about taking medicine with as many side effects as I have experienced.
Thankfully, I also have a great therapist who helps me navigate the challenging decision. The underlying theme has been identifying ways to boost my resilience: setting healthier boundaries, identifying ways to respect myself more, and identifying healthy behaviors.
Thru some of this work with my therapist, I started to realize that I probably have not slept really well in 18 years either.
When we went into the August follow-up appointment with the Psychiatrist, I arrived as a woman on a mission. You see I had just finished yet another failed trial that I attempted to push thru to no avail. While I felt deflated for another medicine that did not work, I also felt confident that sleep was the issue.
I asked her if we could try to solve for sleep this time. She compassionately agreed and I left armed with yet another medicine. Here in lies the difference, I took the first 1/4 dose on the first night and I SLEPT LIKE A CHAMP.
I wake up feeling refreshed and sleep most consistently for 8 hours waking up on the earlier side of the morning between 5 and 6, but I love the early morning hours.
It’s been about 6 weeks since I started this medicine, so I had a follow-up with the Psychiatrist recently. She said we will stay the course as she effectively thinks of the incredibly low dose of a homeopathic remedy.
Grateful for a great team and most grateful for my most ardent champion that encouraged me time and again that I could find the peace I seek.