Another post from the series of emails that I sent in 2014 as we navigated starting an IVF cycle….
Sticking with the Jewel songs for now: “I was thinking that I might fly today…” This is from song called I’m Sensitive, really? Yah, those that know me well know this to be true. I decided to listen to my 4 Jewel albums the other night when insomnia with the waves of grief carrying me thru the night were too much to fall back to sleep. As it happens “Who will save your soul” was the first song that played…
Tomorrow I head to Sedona and it cannot come soon enough. This week has tested me in countless ways, but I kept a positive outlook and people exemplified the goodness of their hearts. In Sedona, I will have limited access to phone and email as in neither work very well at the property, how amazing is that?
I have always been a giver, my dearest friends consider this one of my strengths, however it is easy to take advantage of a giver… As I have sought to create boundaries for myself in how and when I give, I have started to relish in the give and you shall receive.
My Grandmother, sage, wise women that she is said to me earlier this week “SLOW DOWN!!!” Yes, just like that and in an email and I thought, brilliant! Yes, I have the good fortune to also have two AMAZING Grandmothers who at 85 and 94 are better at email than so many people. It is glorious. That is exactly what this retreat will be, an opportunity to slow down and reflect and build anew for the life that I want and the life that I deserve. I consider myself so very blessed to be surrounded by women like you who have wisdom that you have willingly, graciously shared with me over the years and recently.
I will end this with a few meaningful photos from this week when I had the good fortune to have my Dad’s spirit present in my life just when I would want to talk with him most:
This is the amazing sculpture that I found at a local garden store, Southwest Garden, handcrafted by William Hammond, who apprentices at-risk youth to teach them the craft of welding. It is made out of airplane parts and I purchased it for my garden in honor of the 10th anniversary since we lost my Dad. It is also a wind chime and makes a deep, resonating gong sound. I can see if from the glass door in the master bedroom or sit in the garden for meditating. It brings me a sense of calm.
And oldie but goodie was perfect tea yesterday.
The cover of one of your phones…..
Discovered this gem (front and back) at Lorna Jane yesterday and I think this is where I will begin my retreat journey.