There is a song that I have been hearing on the radio and Apple Music lately hits the spot – It Ain’t Me.
At first this song made a lot of sense as Lucky15 stopped giving me rides home, but now it makes sense to me on other levels.
I am the girl that guys probably dream of – I entertain like a champ, I make things like pizza dough and almond milk from scratch. I have been told on more than one occasion this summer during episode one of Misadventures in Dating that guys would marry me in a heartbeat.
Here’s the thing: Lucky15 broke me of my need to attach right away. It’s a good thing really. You don’t want me right now. I will break your heart. I need to be single now: really, really single.
If you are a lucky guy, you get a nickname. This is very much a term of endearment. I love hard, I am good at love and I take care of guys very well, but right now I need to love me more. This means that if I see a future with you, then you probably won’t get far with me.
Me right now? Totally not marrying type, not relationship type either right now, which apparently is challenging when I probably could have won wife of year in the past life for my affinity of entertaining, loving people, and just generally being a nurturer.
Going back to my rule of thumb that if I see a future with ya, probably not going to let you into my life right now as I need time for me. And also, if you are in one of my communities, then same rule currently applies. I mean I rule break my own rules, but after yesterday going to stick to my map. 🙂