Last year I reverse engineered the end by writing a letter to my family before I wrote a letter to my now ex-husband letting them know that we navigated a compassionate, guided divorce with as much mutual respect as we could towards each other to enable us both to go onto live happy and healthy lives as the best versions of ourselves that we simply could not find together.
There is a paragraph of this letter that resonates with me deeply as one of the most life changing trips draws to a close.
The good times were so good, amazing really. In the last 16 years, we have gone on adventures (almost) enough to last a lifetime. I will hold dear to me those memories as well as the strength that I have gained to now stand on my own two feet in realizing that as good as the good times were, the bad simply outweighed the good and we brought out the worst in each other.
In early February, I received a call about an opportunity which took me all of 5 minutes to say yes as this trip seemed like the perfect adventure filled with new experiences. Even though I obtained my new passport last July, I had yet to travel internationally until last week. This meant that the last trip I took internationally was Costa Rica, which was a decidedly bittersweet trip.
This trip to Panama has been one of the most amazing experiences in my entire life. To travel to a new country, meet new friends, and experience a culture and place that juxtaposes familiar and new was quite possibly the best reset button I could have hit.
As I sit in the Copa Club before I return back to Phoenix, I am just beginning to process the magic and lessons of this trip. Travel is a huge part of filling up my soul and this trip inspires me to keep seeking opportunities to travel as well as opportunities to utilize my language skills – it awakens my soul.
I will write more later about places to experience in Panama, but here are a few of my favorite photos from the trip.